So tomorrow is the big day. Moving day. I’ve b…

So tomorrow is the big day. Moving day. I’ve been packing things for about a month now, doing small amounts each day. I ended up getting rid of a lot of things. It’s amazing how much junk we can accumulate over the years. I am hoping that the move will be easy enough. I don’t have any appliances to move so that in itself should make things easier. My father was amazing and he purchased all new appliances as a housewarming gift. I am very lucky to have his help as well as the help from my family. It really is true what is said… that friends come and go but family is always there. 

My dad has been there for me through thick and thin. He was very strict growing up and I didn’t understand it back then, but as an adult I do and I am thankful for everything he taught me. My mom, dad, aunt and youngest sister will be at the new place tomorrow to help me unload everything. The movers come at 8:30 am in the morning. My ex-husband will be home. I was hoping he would not be as it would make things easier, but he took the day off. I am willing to bet there will be some sort of huge party at the house the moment I am gone. I still have not decided whether I will miss all of it or not. I think the only thing I will miss is Coco. I wish I could take him with me too. I am worried about him. I don’t think I will miss anything else though. The past few weeks have been pretty awful and I have no idea who this man I lived with for 11 years even is anymore. There were more lies than I can count on my fingers and toes. I am not really bothered about the whole separation thing, and I am not bothered about the fact that he is interested in other people. It’s human nature after all. I am most bothered by the lies and dishonesty than anything else. The cats are pretty fed up at this point too. I know they can sense my anxiety. I am glad we will be in a place that is positive, peaceful and not filled with hate and rage. The temper tantrums my ex has thrown lately have me at the end of my rope. I am just looking forward to laughing and smiling again. 

I am a little concerned about Sunshine. A week or so ago I found a lump between her neck and chest area. It’s kind of always been there but was never so prominent. I am not sure if it’s gotten bigger or if it just feels that way because she’s gotten smaller. She is 18, so like many senior cats, she has lost weight. She seems alright regardless. She is still eating and playing and cuddling. She also still likes to go for little walks outside. I know that lumps and bumps are not good signs so it’s definitely pulling at my heart strings. I called my vet about it and they agreed with me that at her age, it’s best just to let her enjoy herself and not put her through biopsies and other things. They told me to keep her with me as long as she’s happy. So that’s my plan. I hope the move tomorrow won’t be too stressful for her. I also hope she enjoys the new home. 

I am excited to get there and for the cats to see it. It’s weird… sometimes we need to go through a lot of bad in order to find the good. I can honestly say that I am content with my life just the way that it is. I don’t need or want any more than what I have right now. I am really lucky to have found such an awesome little space and I still can’t believe that it’s actually my own! I can’t wait to take pictures and show all of you. I am so proud! I still have lots of work to do in order to pay my bills, but I will work as hard as I can. As long as my cats are happy, that’s what matters! 

I want to thank all of you once again. The support I found on Tumblr is more than could have ever wished for. You guys are all amazing and I am so grateful to be a part of such a wonderful online community 💓